The Bare Bones

One of my best friends just asked me, “What are you looking for? Don’t bullshit me, Kim. What are you looking for? You’re like me, you love being in love, but what is it that you really want?”

Yes, I love the feeling of being in love, who doesn’t? I felt a glimmer of it some time back, but it’s been about five years since I was enveloped in it. It’s an amazing feeling, and I hope to one day experience it again.

Love should never feel like work. It should never feel like you’re putting more into it than you’re getting out of it. I want the whole kit and caboodle- a partner in crime, a best friend, a lover, someone I can respect, passion,  loyalty, desire.. I want to feel wanted and to make him feel wanted too. I’ve been the dirty little secret as well as the back burner queen, I will never be either of those again. I need someone who will be proud to have me on their arm. I am nothing to be ashamed of, I know that I am a prize.

I’m looking for that rhythm that I can’t walk away from. I want the dance that never ends.. I want electricity. I want to be struck by lightning so hard that I get knocked off of my feet.

Commonality is a major thing for me. I’ve dated opposites, it works for a time, then they get sick of my lifestyle or I get sick of theirs. I can’t live on a couch. I need to move, I need to feel. I’m not seeking a twin, just enough common ground to actually build a foundation.

I would love to be able to tell you my future goals with a relationship. Whether it be marriage, or whatever. Unfortunately, I can’t. Marriage is cool, but that’s not a current goal. A romantic future should be based off of the persons involved. You can plan exactly what you think you want out of life, and then one day meet someone who turns your world completely upside down. You may find yourself wanting things that you had never wanted, or never thought of before.

To sum it up, I want a Frankie/Frankie. Part Frankenstein, part Frank Sinatra. I want the legendary sheep in wolf’s clothing. A fella who looks like a bad boy, is a manly-man, but is sweet and creative. I know, it’s quite the combo. I won’t ever settle, though. He’s out there, or he’s not. Either way, I’m going to live my life my way, and I’m going to have an amazing time doing it.